Being that everyone is too busy on fb, I don't have a problem being open about myself on here, I mean like who's really gonna read this. I have a problem, not to much a big problem, but just something that is delaying my happiness, and could potentially leave me to die a lonely man. I dont know how to love, i have no patience, I cant make up my mind, and I often convince myself that someone is not feeling me the same. My job is to travel, I can literally be anywhere in the world in a matter of hours. On these "trips", I run into beautiful women, I mean drop dead gorgeous women. But I just want someone simple, that i can see within a matter of hours consistantly. I am scared of women, in the denial aspect mostly, I hate to be denied. Even worst, i hate to be led on, or mis led. For ex: I was on a trip out to the boston area, portsmouth new hampshire to be exact. We went to a bar, where i saw the most attractive African American sistah I have seen at that time. So after i finished my drink, i approached her. We had a good little convo, in which my number was given. She said she would call, but for the the sake of time, she did not. To be mis led by that caliber of beauty smh. I can honestly say that i was confident that she would call. But im tired of typing so, you'll get part 2 of the " I cant stand me" later